It’s that time again. Has happened again that I have come full circle back to thinking of ways to die. Someone somewhere is saying, oh but if you really wanted to it is so easy. it’s just not that difficult. you could quite easily, say, hang yourself. You could throw yourself in front of a speeding train. you could swim out to the ocean and on and on. All of these are valid. The trouble for me is, if the reason I want to die in the first place has to do with escaping pain, why on earth would i choose a painful means of exit? More, I am not and never have been a violent person - nor have i, even when i ought have been, an angry person (angry people usually use a firearm to commit suicide).